| Location | Fairview |
| Age | 31 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 04/05/1977 |
| Date of Death | 28/10/2008 |
| Visitors | 3,526 since 05/11/2008 |
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Jesse was an amazing husband and father who was taken from us too soon. I can't believe that I would
lose you my love, still yearning for your touch every single day! I miss your kiss, your laugh, your
captivating blue eyes. I miss how you were an absolutely amazing father to our son and daughter, who
yell at the sky every day and tell the angels that they want their daddy back! I can't stop thinking
about you and how you enriched my life. You're in my dreams, my heart and forever a part of my soul.
I feel as if I've lost a part of myself......my soul aches without you my angel. Till we meet again,
I will think of you, wanting to feel your gentle touch. Our son and daughter send their love and
kisses to their daddy my darling. Until then.....I love you Jesse, with my entire heart and soul!
☆ A SHINING STAR ☆
When I had to leave you
I didn't go too far
Look up to the Heavens
Im a Brillant shining star.☆
May this light show you
As it glistens from above
A very special thank~you
When you lifted me with love.☆
A little star that brightly shines
A star thats free from pain
Held gently in God's loving arms
Until we meet again.☆
As you go on your journey
Be the best that you can be
And know that God is there for you
As he is here for me.☆
When we miss each other
And what each other near
You shine your light upon the earth
And I'll shine my light up here.☆
So we will always remember
When we seem so far apart
To shine our lights together
With love upon our hearts.☆
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4TH MAY 2009
WISHING YOU A PEACEFUL BANK HOLIDAY MONDAY........
M - Miss you every day and night
Y - You're that star in the sky shining bright
A - Angel wings hold me so gently
N - Never ending love surrounds me
G - God took you in his loving care
E - Embracing you on your journey there
L - Left me with just memories of a love so rare.
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................`----- LOTS OF LOVE JUDE. X
❤ Written by Jean Cavanagh 2009.❤
Questions In My Head - by Danielle Benyon-Payne
I look at the last picture of you and me,
A picture shows what we cannot always see.
Eyes that no longer shine, a smile that covers tears,
Only you knew your feelings,
Only you knew your fears.
I look back with hindsight,
Was there something I could have done?
I feel such enormous guilt,
And I know I’m not the only one.
Why couldn’t you share with us,
How down you really were?
Did you think we wouldn’t understand?
Think we wouldn’t care?
Did you really think life would be better for us this way?
Would life really have been unbearable for you if you had stayed?
I understand life was hard for you, in a way I’ve never known,
But we would have been there for you, you would never be alone.
When we were out that night, were you aware?
Did you know it was our last night together?
Is that why we were there?
I think back over every detail, what was said? What did we do?
Did I make it clear, in every way, that I loved being there with you?
I meant to tell you that weekend, what a lovely time I had,
But time ran away with me, and now I feel sad,
That I never made it back to yours,
To tell you what I meant to say,
And now my chance has been taken away.
So I’ll tell you now instead, I love you, I miss you.
My world stopped the moment you died.
I run through the motions,
But something has changed inside,
I love you, miss you, always.
Who's To Blame? - by Christine Ross
Who's to blame for suicide?
The question often heard.
Someone always points a finger
And they say such hurtful words.
They never do consider that
It's caused from a disease.
Depression and Bipolar
Are just a few of these.
Some die from being murdered.
Some die from accidents.
Some die from pneumonia,
But none of it makes sense.
Sometimes body parts wear out
Way before their time.
Some lose the cancer battle,
But it all seems so unkind.
No matter how they leave us
It never is their choice.
There's something deep within them
That has a bigger voice.
So please refuse to take the blame
For the THING that took your friend.
Although others point their fingers.
They haven't walked your mile.
Your birthday.... :(
Another day without you, remembering all the times years before that we were together. I remember your birthday last year, was just us and the kids....perfect. I think of you every second, it seems. I haven't felt you around lately and it terrifies me that you may have left me completely. I wish that I had all the answers and my heart didn't hurt so badly. I ache for you babe. My heart aches to hear you laugh again and your smile. I hate having to tell the kids over and over that you're gone. I wake up in the same nightmare every day. It hurts to look in their eyes and tell them that they can't see their daddy again. It shatters them when I say you're gone...you can see it in their precious faces. I'm lost without you sweetheart, I'm alone, terrified, empty. I wish that you were here with us every single day Jesse, our lives will never be the same and I hate the fact that you're gone. I need you, I need to feel your arms around me.......Please babe....keep me strong for our babies.....they're the only reason that I'm still here, otherwise, we would have been together long ago. Love you my angel! Til we meet again, I'm forever yours! xoxo
My heart goes out to you and your children, nothing will ever be the same again for any of you but the love you feel for jesse will remain strong and burning deep. There are no answers to the many many questions you must have, My brother opted out of life too and nearly 2years on? not a day goes past when i don't cry and ask myself why..why did he feel the need to leave me,he was not just my brother but my best friend in life and always had been. I can understand your pain, your waking nightmare, but i also feel that our lost troubled souls are looking out for us, and will help guide us through the paths that life will have us now travel on. Be strong, your children need you, dont worry about anyone else or how they have possibly reacted, they arent important, people can be cruel they dont understand unless they have been where both you and I are standing, i'm sure both jesse and chris will be having a party in heaven wishing we were all there to see how great a place it really is, no more pain, no more worries but lots and lots of love to give. You will be reunited with him and until then ? he will always be with you and your children, smiling over your shoulder, entering your dreams telling you what a great job you are doing, listen out for him, Let the light of his love shine in you always and look after your babies..
God Bless and R.I.P jesse.
Lost.......
The moment that you died,
Our hearts split in two.
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
We often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep;
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon our cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
We do it every day.
But missing you is heartache,
That never goes away.
We hold you tightly within our hearts,
And there you will remain.
Life has gone on without you,
But it will never be the same.
For those who still have their loved ones,
Treat them with tender care.
You will never know the emptiness,
As when you turn and they are not there.
Today is 6 months since we've been without you. Seems like yesterday. I still have the horrible nightmares and cry for you constantly, babe. I can barely get out of bed these days, your birthday is in a week. I don't know how I can do this without you, babe. We were looking forward to our future together, we made so many plans. The questions in my mind I sometimes think will drive me crazy. The questions and no answers, the unknown, it breaks my heart. I hope you're watching down on us....I know that you are. I feel you. Wish that our dreams would have been able to come true. Until then, I will see you in my dreams at night, I LOVE the good ones, I cling to them. The ones where I see your face and you take my hand and tell me how much you love me. I miss your face, I miss touching you and having you beside me. I miss watching you be a daddy and your amazing laugh, miss your smile, your hypnotic eyes. I miss your smell. I miss you my love, I'm broken, I'm lost, alone, I'm weak and I just want to be with you. We miss you sweetheart, thinking of your every secong. Love you Jesse! xoxo Forever and always my one and only!
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Letter From Heaven.
When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an Angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind,
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible,
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity,
and all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past,
but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.
SLEEP TIGHT SWEET ANGEL
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Taken From Me
Angie Flores
I'm sitting here in my room, looking at your picture.
Wondering why you couldn't be a part of my future.
Uncontrollable tears stream down my face,
while my heart beat starts to race.
Asking god why he took you from my life,
it was more painful than stabbing me in the heart with a knife.
I still needed you here
you were the one to make everything so clear.
you are apart of me and I am apart of you
when you died a part of me died too.
I never knew how hard it was to loose someone you love
until the day you went to heaven above.
Even though I can't see,
I know your up there watching over me.
I miss you more and more everyday
and all I can do is pray.
In my heart you shall forever remain.
★ 17TH APRIL 2009 ★
⊱♥⊰ ANGEL WINGS YOU WEAR... ⊱♥⊰~
The day you left broke our hearts
and the tears fell like rain,
but knowing that you now have wings
helps to ease the pain.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
We know now when the snow falls
it is Angel dust from you
and when we see a shooting star
our Angel just passed through.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
The rain drops do not make us sad
for they are not tears,
but sprinkles of love falling down,
our Angel again is near.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
The winter cold has even changed,
Jack Frost no longer exists,
it's now a visit from our Angel
and he's left a special gift.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
You also visit in the night,
your wings flutter with grace,
we know now when we awaken
that an Angel has kissed our face.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
When the days are warm and bright
and the sun shines from above,
we feel the warmth wrap around us,
you've given an Angel hug.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
You are with us at all times,
every day and night,
you try to end the pain we have
and the tears that we still cry.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
Though Heaven is your home now
and Angel wings you wear,
you stay close to those you love,
until they join you there.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
Written by: Dolly Lee
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